Like now, sitting here by my computer, just feeling depressed for actually no reason at all really. None that should be allowed to be depressed over at least. I mean I got my friends and family who cares about me, a nice bed to sleep in at night, shopping too much but it’s fun and yeah, I’m in England baby, and I love it. But sometimes things get a bit too much, a bit overwhelming.
Like now, sitting here by my computer, with all sorts of thoughts running through my mind, simply because my mate just got herself a new boyfriend. That’s the third boyfriend she’s had since I moved here, and that’s three real bfs more than I have ever had. And I feel lonely and kinda depressed that my object of desire is taken, and way too cool for me anyway. But it’s ok, Ida assured me it was normal feeling like this when friends gets a love life. Like my darrrrling pig said “life would be so much easier if guys werent so god damn attractive..” AMEN TO THAT!
And when you first get emotional everything just hits you so much harder. Like being so far away from home, from my mummy and my daddy. My nice mama sent me a mail with the subject title to our little princess yesterday, and just thinking about it now, in the state I’m in, makes me tear up. Another blessing in my life, having a family that loves me as much as they do, I’m grateful for it, and right now I miss them so much. My mum who would sit cry with me when I thought I had failed my exam, my dad who gets so excited about me getting a job, that he wanna make the scooter ready right away. My sister who spends too much money on shopping, who now I understand as I do the same, and Errrrlend who gives the best impression of me. Even my annoying baby brother, he’s impressing me, smart as he is, especially in geography.
And yeah talking about crying, me and Ida went to see Marley and Me last night, such an adorable film. Both of us crying, tears rolling down our cheeks I swear. Had to go check our makeup afterwards. Go see it!
